on hiatus

its running 2 days. since i last went out of the house.

a year ago, this would have been one of my top 3 hardest things to do.

but things change... 

first off, i am on the verge of poverty... not that i haven't declared bankruptcy over and over again for sooo many times.. its just that this is the point when i feel the threat of permanence in terms of meager income inflow. i have resigned.

which brings us to the second reason why i am suddenly homebody. since i have tendered my resignation (yes i have!), i have lost interest in doing my job (unproud moment). but i promise to deliver what is expected of me before my term ends. come june, i will be unemployed... and "un-earning." sob.

third, the sun is too hot. need i say more? sun blocks and lotions which promise UV protection just doesn't seem to work anymore. 

yesterday, i think i didn't spend more than a total of 2 hours out of bed. i even ate in bed (sorry ma). i still had the orientation to perform self-care activities of course.imagine how i feel... it's like mild depression minus the crying and chest tightness (hilak-hilak ug huot-huot sa dughan). 

no. it must not be the hormones... its just way too early for that. 


so if i only had my way.. and my cash... here are the things i would have done during my 2-day "sick leave"...

1. go wind riding to new places (like outside the P.I hahaha)
2. take beautiful pictures
3. spend a night under the stars
4. learn something new... like cooking or surfing (i wish)
5. of course, shopping