from the doodle pad: forbidden

i long to tell you forbidden words...
... words i am not supposed to utter.
but you see, its all in here
kept, hidden, and left unrevealed.
because that's how it should be.


fear creeps through my soul
and i try to avoid your gaze...
'cause i know the moment you see my eyes
they will confess the guilt of loving you.


i should never fall,
you should never fall.
for loving entails hurt and pain and tears
-all the things we try to run away from.
we've been there before.
love is the road we should tread not
if we are to keep our hearts whole.


just let it go
because that is how it should be..
...kept, hidden and left unrevealed...
... suppressed, denied and soon,
maybe, even forgotten.


i should never fall,
you should never fall,
my reason forbids it.


-november 2002-