from the doodle pad : absence or nearness of you

having you near
is both heaven and hell
a double edged sword
that i keep cutting myself with.


cause being without you, i just cant be whole
just half a breath
half a beat
half a life
its not living at all...


and yet the nearness of you
pricks in more ways than one
your hands within reach but they refuse to hold mine
you are near yet so far away


so which pain would i rather take?
which side of the sword this time?
will the day ever come...
when i will feel no pain...
in the absence or nearness of you?


08.29.09
photo credit: from the web

(when staying hurts more than leaving)